random thoughts

i recently gave a friend advice that when she liked a guy, she had to observe how he handled bad situations. How he handles bad situations is how he's going to always handle them. If he always has a bad temper, never initiates, or jumps to conclusion, most likely, he's going to be like that when you're in a relationship with him... Sometimes i wish i took my own advice.

i've never seen my parents argue. i hope when i have kids i can hide it as well as my parents do.

my dad told me that when you like a guy, you have to test him. an important way to test him is to see if he's willing to spend money on you. If he's stingy with his money, that means in marriage it's going to be "my money" or "your money" not OUR money. Also i heard in a sermon once that Jesus talked a lot about money to get the point across that what you spend your money on is where your heart is. So if you spend all your money on gambling and not on providing for your family, your heart belongs to gambling... i need to listen to my dad and Jesus more.

for once i'd like to know what it feels like to be pursued. i'm tired of being the one chasing and initiating.

i feel like when i go through pms, it's easy for Satan to mess with my head...since im already emotional and needy, simple misunderstandings can turn into a fight...i think it's the same for every girl.

there are more women involved in the church than men. i desperately pray that God can bring men to be leaders, in the church and in the family. it's so rare to find a man. 99% of them are still boys.

the thought of marriage makes me cringe. i don't know why i've been hating on marriage so much. when i think of it, i just don't want it... i think i'm trying to convince myself that i don't want it because... i don't know. it just hurts too much.

i took a long nap today, so now i wish i was tired. kinda just feel like crying. i've been feeling like this all day.

i guess that's enough for tonight.